C'eathlin Sioda
Family Ties


Katie met Liam at the door with her coat on. 
She couldn't reach him earlier by phone to tell
him--warn him what had happened.
   “Sarah is in the hospital again!”
She wrapped her arms around his unyielding
frame.  He patted her absently on the back
with one hand, then removed himself from her grasp.
He walked on through the dining room dropping his coat
over a chair back and tossing his cap on the table. 
   “When did this happen?” Liam said sitting down heavily
in the arm chair facing the television.  He switched it
on with the remote.

Katie sighed deeply walking over to Liam’s chair.  
   “We need to go now!”  she said, a small  pleading 
in her voice.  “She’s been up there all day
with no one.  I haven't talked to her
since last week-she sounded all right then”
she said more to herself than him.
We were going to the movies tomorrow. 
She has mail on the cupboard that looks important. 
Let’s go, Liam!”
   “We'll go!  I just want to sit a minute and catch
the news.  When will she get over this?”  he said
flipping through the channels until he found CNN.
   “When did she go in?  Last night?”  
   “I guess.”
   “At least we got a night’s sleep,”  Liam said watching
soldiers carrying machine guns kick refugees from
another war.  “What did they say when the hospital
called?”
   “They didn't tell me anything except that she’s
stable now and she took too much medicine.
They had to pump her stomach, Liam,” Katie said
almost in a whisper.  A tear made a path through
the makeup on her cheek.
   “Katie,  you know she can't come back here
and stay, not again.  It never works.  It turns
our life upside down every time.  I won't have
it any more!” he shouted clicking off the television
and grabbing his cap and coat.

Katie said nothing following Liam out the
door to the car.  The ride to the hospital was
silent except for her effort to stave off
more tears with deep breaths.  The night sky
was spitting tiny capsules of snow as the wind
sliced through everything in it’s path.  The hospital
parking lot had only a few cars, as if the weather
were too cold for more tragedy.

   “I can't be here all night”  Liam said as he walked
through the automatic doors and on down the familiar
florescent washed halls.  Katie didn't respond. 
As she walked passed the information desk,
in a voice used for often repeated speeches, she whispered, “Can someone tell me where my
daughter is?”

They continued on; right...left...then right again,
oblivious of the color coded flooring’s attempt
to guide them.  Liam pushed the opener on the wall
and the large gray door to ICU swung open
with a hollow clanking sound.
   “She was in this room before,” Liam said as he
watched the drips fall in silent tempo down
the IV line into the sleeping girl.  “I remember
it being the second door on the left,” he said as
if this mundane statement would bring some
normality to the  scene before him.

Katie ran her fingers lovingly through her
daughter’s honey colored hair now matted
and damp.  “Her face looks swollen, Liam
get me some tissue from the bathroom so
I can wipe this charcoal off her mouth.”
He handed her the tissues then turned toward
the door.  “I'm going to ask what’s going
on,”  he said over his shoulder heading to the
nurse’s station.

   “Sweetie, it’s Mom.  Can you open your eyes?
Liam and I are here.  We love you.  Can you
wake up?”  Katie said, running her hand up
and down the girls untethered arm. Puffy
eyes opened and grew large.  Their once vivid 
blue muted by the red tributaries of too many
tears. 
   “Mom!  I'm so sorry!  I didn't want to have them
call you, but I was so scared!  I'm so sorry!”
   “It’s okay Sarah.  You don't have anything to be
sorry about.  I'm glad you asked them to call me.
I'll always come,” Katie said softly her faced pressed
into her daughter’s hair.
   “I was so tired, Mom, and I couldn't sleep!  I just
kept taking them!  I got confused and then I got
scared so I called 911!” she poured out through
rapid breaths and tears.
   “Shhhh.  It’s okay now.  I love you.  I always love
you”  Katie said, rocking her daughter back and
forth in that slow age old rhythm of comfort.  

The subtle hint of dawn was in the sky when
Liam unlocked the car doors.  “The nurse said
she will be discharged at noon.  We may as well
get some rest until then.” Katie studied Liam
as he stood unmoving by the open car door.  The snow drifted down in large flakes now, falling all
around him as if he stood encased in one of
those plastic spheres children love to shake. 
   “Liam!   What is it?”
   “The doctor said she should not be alone for
a while.  They almost lost her this time.”
His head hung down, a defeated chin touching
his open jacket.  “I just can't believe there
wasn't something I could do to help!”  His face
grew redder as tears began to flood his eyes. 
   “Liam,  you did the best you could!   We just
can't fix it”  Katie said,  biting her lip for
control.
   “I told them that we would come back and
take her home with us,”  he said finally getting into
the car.  
   “Of course.  I knew you would,”  Katie said
as she shut her door.  She lay her head back
against the seat and closed her eyes. “Tomorrow,”
she whispered.  Lifting her head and looking
out the window she added, “Tomorrow I will make
a big pot of soup.”
   
    “Tomorrow is today, Katie, Liam said. “It’s today.”
 
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