Exploring Literature
Robert Gibbons


Loving Duras

What then would it mean to say, "I love Duras."? To love flesh & text as one. Writing that comes from the body. A woman's body. Her choric voice. In Kristeva's sense of the word, chora as pulse, inner vibration, which when listened to intently can charge forth as moan, roar, or silence. It comes from the Greek for enclosed space, or womb.

A great teacher of writing, of Woman. What it is to be Woman. Aren't we all sick of men pointing everything out, needing to make a point, to be right, a gender that insists, argues, intimidates, specifies, rationalizes, beats the dead horse of its own sex? An inevitable language, not eroticized.

Listen to Duras. To the sound of the choric utterance. One of the best examples of this difference between women & men writers is the aura surrounding one of her most fascinating characters, whom she brings into the world this way: "Then one day this infirm body stirs in the womb of God." Lol V. Stein comes into the world, or back into the world.

But when she comes into the world, it is full of holes. Wounded. Duras sees the wound as a place where, "the greatest joy & the greatest pain are so commingled as to be indefinable, a single entity but unnamable for lack of a word." (The Ravishing of Lol Stein, Grove, 1966, p.38)

I like to believe - since I love her - that if Lol is silent in her daily life it is because, for a split second, she believed that this word might exist. Since it does not, she remains silent. It would have been an absence-word, a hole-word, whose center would have been hollowed out into a hole, a kind of hole in which all others would have been buried. (38)

Throughout this exquisite tracking of female language, the body speaks its own undecoded communiqués through such expressions as a "vague, emotion-filled wail;" crying; "screaming all sorts of things that made perfect sense;" a wife who, "never offered a word of complaint."

Lol carries the symptoms of the sound of her sex. The beautiful reverberations of her sex. She is symbolic of a feminine language it would serve men well to listen to. The labial plosive, the sibilants of the vagina-dentata hiss & silence, the orgasmic oracular of that same sacred vessel. Freud wondered what women want. The same as men, Identity, defined on their own terms, in their own language, & one, of course, linked to desire & pleasure.

Barely subaltern to both sex & death: desire & suffering. Duras felt that only the female perspective of sex & desire is interesting anymore, the male's driven to repetition & predictability. Only the great territories (terror stories) of woman are left to be explored (to be told). Sunrise is a birth, my wife says, an evagination.

Listening at the chora, which Duras compared to a gong, (the sound of a slit-drum?) is her secret, & it can't be done without suffering. Duras, the writer. Duras teaching writing. She's tough. I always loved her image of wrestling "The Black Block," in her book of essays. (Practicalities, translated by Barbara Bray, Grove, 1990.)

When you're writing a kind of instinct comes into play. What you're going to write is already there in the darkness. The image of a black block in the middle of the world isn't far out. You have in front of you a mass suspended between life and death and entirely dependent upon you. I seize the mass that's already there, move it about, smash it up - it's almost a question of muscles, of physical dexterity. (25-26)

In another little book, originally from Gallimard in 1993, & translated by Mark Polizzotti for Lumen editions in Cambridge, MA, titled, Writing, Duras shares more secrets. For her, two essential elements in writing are solitude & doubt. She also warns against what she finds in others' books as "clean," but which, "derive from a classicism that takes no chances. Inevitable would probably be the word." (19)

She continues, "Writing comes like the wind. It's naked, it's made of ink, it's the thing written, and it passes like nothing else passes in life, nothing more, except life itself." (33) That intimation of death is echoed in a quote from a diary in one of two new biographies, this one from The University of Chicago by Laure Adler,

I'm sitting at my table, searching for a sentence, yes, a little drunk, I'm searching for a sentence that won't come. Yesterday the sentence was spiraling fragmented inside me. Today it won't recreate itself. It was long, quickened by the pitch of a song, a refrain; it was like a lament, regular, intoned. Words I remember were caught up in it: slime, death, fan, frightened birds, thief, I'm searching for the sentence. It is such exquisite pain not to find it tonight. It will return tomorrow like a bitch to her master after the shame of the night hunt. (261)

In her latter years Duras waxed oracular presaging the AIDS tragedy in The Malady of Death, &, again, Adler in Marguerite Duras: A Life, quotes her as saying in 1990, "We in Europe eat sick, disabled, decalcified animals, walking mush with no muscle that stumble with each step." (373) Her last book, a deathbed vigil kept for over a year, & transcribed by Yann Andrea, is appropriately titled, No More. (New York: Seven Stories Press, 1998.) Haunting, courageous: "I feel crushed by existence. It makes me want to write." (52)


-previously published in Niederngasse
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